Friday, January 29, 2010

Stop it

This is a general message.  Stop correcting me on things you think that you feel are necessary with the guise of doing it b/c you feel my Mom would have wanted you to.  You are inaccurate.  You were not part of that relationship.  Our friendship/mother daughter relationship was ours.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Annie 3 Snooze 1

Well...I think that I am officially kicking the snooze button's ass.  Today was the first day that I slacked and used it.  So, as far as I am concerned, I am a champ.  No snooze tomorrow though, back at it.  I wish I had something more fascinating to share but I don't.  I spent alot of my day doing data entry.  Yuck.  I was about ready to blow up my computer....but I was smart enough not to.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Hugs are good.

I have missed my Mom alot the last two days.  No specific reason, just quite a few circumstances that have made me cuss her obvious absence.  Damn it.  I need her.  I got some not to so great news this afternoon and based on the events of the last few months, it really hit home with me.  I will elaborate more soon.  However, I was really upset.  So, I walked into my boss's office and told her and our controller that I needed a hug.  And, I got one.  Thank God for them and understanding that I wouldn't be asking if I didn't think I wasn't going to make it without it.  For a minute, they made me feel better.  They get a star on their chart for that one.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Good intentions

Today was the hard stop for hitting the snooze button.  I have been a chronic 'snoozer' for as long as I can remember.  Sometimes I hit it once, sometimes I hit for an hour.  All in all, it's a practice I need to stop.  As much as I love it, it isn't productive.  So, since today was stop day I had a busy night last night.

Laid out workout clothes with socks and shoes.  Check.
Synced IPOD with new tunes for workout.  Check.
Made my drink for my workout and put it in the fridge.  Check.
Redid the covers on the bed so that I might have some and sleep well.  Check.
Set both alarms.  One for me.  One for Bryce.  Check.
Be in bed before 1030.  Check.

Wake up at 630 realizing the alarm as not gone off.  -6 checks.
Realizing that while you set the time on the alarm, you forgot to turn it on.  Nice work, you idiot.

However, the alarm was then set for 715, and that's when I got up, without the snooze button.

Luckily for me, I have time for the gym this afternoon and will make it then.

Today gets a 50% for execution so far.  Thank God, there is always tomorrow.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

You look thin.

Nope...I'm not bragging.  However, one of my favorite people today told me that I was looking really thin.  And, you would have thought that I won the lottery.  My weight hasn't change much since I started training but, I am pretty darn sure that I am building some serious muscle again.  Yeah for me.  Today's comment will be good fuel for this week of training since I had a little lapse last week.  If I could just get this damn sleep problem figured out life would be better.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Of course.

I have my first appointment this afternoon with my first clients....I will be selling their home for them!  And, because it is my first ever business appointment as an official REALTOR, I need to feel good.  Feeling good means wearing a little favorite sequined jacket.  Some might think that's a little over the top....not me, it's perfect.  This jacket looks great and it fits me.  Let's go sell a home!!!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I am my mother's daughter

I almost laughed out loud this morning when I looked down at my feet.  I have red nail polish on my big toe only and miniscule remainders of it on my other toes.  That might not be funny at all to you....but I laughed to myself.  That always happened to my Mom in the winter because she wouldn't take the polish off herself and risk ruining her always perfect I always took it off for her because it bugged me.  And, what am I doing....walking around with that same look.  Maybe I'll fix it....or maybe I will just leave it.

I also laughed as I busily jotted notes down on my yellow legal pad this afternoon.  That was my Mom too.  Maybe tomorrow I can get out the note cards and organize it in the same columns that she did.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Might I not recommend...

Trying to run before 7am on a Monday when you have a pulled muscle in your back.  In my quest to improve my health, and get ready for that little half marathon, I begrudgingly hauled myself to the gym this am.  And, I tried to run just like I was supposed to.  Might I add, I am not really a 'runner' to begin with but today was certainly a testament to that as well.  I am also not one of those people that need to prove their heroism, after I figured out I was either going to really hurt myself or pass out...I walked it.  And, that was just going to have to be good enough for this am.  Honestly, it was a Monday...and I hate Mondays.

I realize that most people hate Mondays...I, however, take that to the next level.  I hate getting up on Monday, which is funny because I no longer despise my job.  I don't like lots of pressure on Mondays...I like to ease into my weeks.  My Mom died on a Monday so that right there is a good enough reason to hate them.  As far as a I am concerned, Monday can be my cranky day.  Or, maybe Monday should just be negotiable...maybe we should be able to choose whether or not we want it to be part of our life.  Pretty sure you know what I would choose.

Who knows...

For the last six months, I have been blogging about my process of grief over the sudden loss of my Mom, who was also my best friend.  Because of my blog, I have made a lot of progress...and who knows, maybe I have even helped someone.  But, on a regular basis, I have these random thoughts, usually in the middle of the night when I can't sleep (thanks grief), that just don't fit in my other blog or anywhere else for that matter.  So, I decided that it was time to start another one.  Who knows if anyone will read it...but, I don't really care.  

As for the title...I love sequins.  That was actually a fundamental difference between my Mom and I.  She thought that less was more usually when it came to all things sparkle.  I, however, love all things that sparkle, jewelry, gemstones, sequins, mirrors....if it shines...I like it.  So, why not throw that in the title.  As for the diva part...take it for what it's worth....a fun short word to tack onto sequined.